Yes yes I hear you, the sky full of stars, the full moon night or well the crescent moon, the beauty of the velvety sky all of that is yes, but when the sun’s rays pierce through the sky in the morning we all well know who is the boss. A sentiment I had this morning after indulging in some fun playing pickle ball last night in a play arena. Okay first of all I do not get that game, in fact you can’t blame the game, as a child too I never understood the competitive spirit, for me only games you play against the earth (read golf, swimming, or hiking) makes sense but even in those you are actually measuring against yourself. But being around people, laughing my lungs out, and being social is always a recipe for dopamine. It could also be a recipe for disaster, sometimes depending on the conversation or who we are talking to! Last couple of years insomnia had be talking, sparked by who said what and what could have been said. Well we all know where coulds, woulds and shoulds lead to and that is nowhere. So after a late night full of slapstick fun and literally people talking mindlessly, well that is clearly what happens when the sun goes down, I am deeply convinced that no late night is worth it. And this comes from the girl who has danced all night till the sun literally came up, for more days than I can count on my finger. But then again dancing in the sunlight is far underrated and even more fun I must say.
As the sun begins the next day I am still so sleepy playing a really weird game, a mishmash of tennis, badminton, table tennis and what not, beginning to want to rub my eyes to eternity and all the laughs too do not provide any amount of solace. The balance of happiness built with laughter comes crashing down with the brain not reset with the cerebrospinal fluid cleaning it up. Sleep is the only time it is supposed to work they say. And with all the toxin in my brain I can hardly concentrate. The sun comes up everyday and while it is the best to be up with the sun, I completely endorse that knowledge. Even when I typing this out now I am not very sure of what I actually wanted to convey. And thus I know that late nights are so not worth it. Scientific studies say that some animals are nocturnal and come out in the dark, yet I am not reiterating that humans are not one of those and though all our exposure to the blue light may be evolving us into some weird breed of nocturnal creatures, basking in the daylight is definitely the way to be. While I go take a walk in the sunlight and silence all the late night engagements, I hope to strengthen my mind enough to say no!
Vedasri Siddamsetty 