I do not want to be a disapointment I heard myself say, obviously shocking myself in the process. I obviously do not know where that came from and apparently, deep down in my consciousness, I wanted others to be delighted with me, by me. No wonder the crusade to be light and to delight, delight is my favorite word in the English language, it just has the right ring to it I think. Now while I could choose to be delighted, by me, I soon seem to have forgotten the concept of boundaries and no matter what one does (or does not do to delight) the subject of the audience is always subjective and that is an opinion one needs to learn to appreciate and accept or the ticket to forlorn-hood or forlornity if you may please is a given.
With that I am readying myself to disappoint and to be disappointed in equal measure. No I am not a people pleaser or perhaps I am, and that’s the root of this journey to disappoint or not to disappoint! And people pleasers are what we definitely should not be, not at the cost of becoming a person-disappointed with the person being you! So here we go, while everything cannot be controlled, the disappointment may well be embraced just as playfully as we may. Delighting in disappointment may well be the need of the hour. While I go on and make peace with my ability to disappoint, what fear or un-want of yours are you going to embrace today?
Life may well be in the living and swallowing a bitter pill or two, the aftertaste of bitter is always sweet, so says science and I attest it! (You can too, after popping a karela or an amla into those fancy tastebuds ;)) Oh well! Chasing delight never seems to end 😁
Vedasri Siddamsetty 